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WARNING! Rantings on life ahead.
If you wish not to experience goosebumps, skip this post.
Honestly, the word "marriage" freaks me out. "Dating" too. To me, it's incredibly impossible for any of this to occur sincerely. CY asked me when I would like to get married. "Marriage? Only sha gua (idiots) will marry la!!"
It only exists in fairytales and dramas and in worlds of deluded, real-live people (whether they have a partner or not). Even if it does exit, I don't believe it's meant for me. I don't plan to get married. I don't plan to give birth to children either. The people I've seen experiencing "love" seems neither joyful nor sincere nor pure to me. It's either lust, for-the-sake-of-it, for fun or something else that doesn't involve 100% sincereity.
I think all I will ever have as an adult in the future is work, the support of my colleagues, friends and certain family member. So my conclusion would be "love" does exist, but it's just not meant for me and probably, many other people too.
It complicates, hurts, troubles, deludes and disappoints. This is the prize for the beauty of love. And I don't think I'd want to feel any of that. It will just suck hardcore.
Anyway, the relationship my father and I are going down in the dumps. I just can't be bothered to fix it. It's stupid. Why should I? I would just scorn at him for trying to make ammends anyway, even though I know he wouldn't. It's too late already. Thinking about it, I'm in the very same situation my brother was in when he was my age. It makes me if i will I ever end up like him? Walking aimlessly in a hopeless life.
The thought of it sickens me. I thought I would be the one watching others fall as I live in a simple house with a simple job. But now, I'm not so sure.
I want to be so many things, I want to do so much. But I don't know where to begin, because I fear that once I begin a certain route, the end would be beyond disappointment. I'm lost and stressed so much. I feel I could just fall prey to depression.
How do you define "love"? Maybe it doesn't even exist. Maybe it's just our imagination. Something that doesn't exist, that we conjured up in hope of happiness. I believe in the deep bond of family and friends, but love for the opposite gender is too wild, like a fantasy.
Maybe it's my upbringing and exposure that brought me to think it like that. This strong barrier I have against "love", I believe, is more than just impregnable. I'm not against it, like the Devil (as people may think), but just skeptical towards it. Neither am I trying to be an "emo" about it. It's just how I view it. And if it still sounds emo to you, I rest my case.
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WARNING! Rantings on life ahead.
If you wish not to experience goosebumps, skip this post.
Honestly, the word "marriage" freaks me out. "Dating" too. To me, it's incredibly impossible for any of this to occur sincerely. CY asked me when I would like to get married. "Marriage? Only sha gua (idiots) will marry la!!"
It only exists in fairytales and dramas and in worlds of deluded, real-live people (whether they have a partner or not). Even if it does exit, I don't believe it's meant for me. I don't plan to get married. I don't plan to give birth to children either. The people I've seen experiencing "love" seems neither joyful nor sincere nor pure to me. It's either lust, for-the-sake-of-it, for fun or something else that doesn't involve 100% sincereity.
I think all I will ever have as an adult in the future is work, the support of my colleagues, friends and certain family member. So my conclusion would be "love" does exist, but it's just not meant for me and probably, many other people too.
It complicates, hurts, troubles, deludes and disappoints. This is the prize for the beauty of love. And I don't think I'd want to feel any of that. It will just suck hardcore.
Anyway, the relationship my father and I are going down in the dumps. I just can't be bothered to fix it. It's stupid. Why should I? I would just scorn at him for trying to make ammends anyway, even though I know he wouldn't. It's too late already. Thinking about it, I'm in the very same situation my brother was in when he was my age. It makes me if i will I ever end up like him? Walking aimlessly in a hopeless life.
The thought of it sickens me. I thought I would be the one watching others fall as I live in a simple house with a simple job. But now, I'm not so sure.
I want to be so many things, I want to do so much. But I don't know where to begin, because I fear that once I begin a certain route, the end would be beyond disappointment. I'm lost and stressed so much. I feel I could just fall prey to depression.
How do you define "love"? Maybe it doesn't even exist. Maybe it's just our imagination. Something that doesn't exist, that we conjured up in hope of happiness. I believe in the deep bond of family and friends, but love for the opposite gender is too wild, like a fantasy.
Maybe it's my upbringing and exposure that brought me to think it like that. This strong barrier I have against "love", I believe, is more than just impregnable. I'm not against it, like the Devil (as people may think), but just skeptical towards it. Neither am I trying to be an "emo" about it. It's just how I view it. And if it still sounds emo to you, I rest my case.
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WONG HY, 03/02.
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My Interests
I take a lot of interest in the arts and sciences. You can say that I'm a geek, or something like that. I take a huge interest in learning the arts, literature, nature, photography, biology, physics, chemistry, etc.
I also love reading, especially books ranging in the classics, fantasy, thriller, crime-buster, in-popular-demand or highly-recommended category. I also browse through educational magazines once in a while.
I LOVE English Literature. I love Science too, but not as much. There's just so much to know in both categories, it's like a never-ending mystery. I don't really know how to describe how exactly it is wonderful. I just find it so, SO awesome.
I like to look at beautiful things, and that's where art comes in. I like looking at designs on anything, absolutely anything. Furniture, nature, sceneries, stamps, stickers, note books, prints, cakes, food, wood crafts, pottery, paintings, drawings, words, etc.
I enjoy good music, vocal and instrumental. My preference to the genres of music depends on my mood. It changes from time to time.
I love food. Chinese, western, Indian, Malay, you name it. I'm not really cut out to be a cook, but I love cooking all the same, especially baking.
I like active sports too. Jogging, taking walks and sprinting is not really my thing, unless I feel like it, which comes only once in a blue moon. I prefer playing friendly sports like basketball, soccer, badminton, volley and tennis. I love water sports too, like swimming and scuba-diving, although I seldom get the opportunity to do so.
I also love going out and hanging out with my family friends. Sometimes, I prefer going out alone. I usually hang out at the library or some book stores when I go out alone, maybe because I like quiet, peaceful places to do my stuff. When I'm with my friends, we'd be at the cinemas, or mini-food bars,restaurants, fast-food outlets, or neo-print booths. We can be just about anywhere and everywhere! Just being with them brings out my out-going side.
Whenever I go out with my family, its either for meals or bookstores or errands. I always look forward to such trips. Mainly because all of us are a funny bunch. We say and do stupid stuff so naturally, I always enjoy listening to the laughter and small comments that follows. It's like we're all playing out a sitcom family film.
Oh, oh! And I LOVE animals! Dogs, cats, elephants, horses, rabbits, hamsters, birds, bears, penguins, cubs, fawns, etc. I always find myself reading deeply into how a certain specie of animals lives in magazines such as "Discovery Box", "Current Science" and "National Geographic".
Another thing I like is fashion. It depends on my mood when it comes to shopping but I love looking at clothes and accessories. I don't really like earrings and necklaces. Whenever I see people wearing earrings and necklaces, I can't help but think it makes them look slightly unattractive.
About Me
People say I can be really blur and clueless. I don’t know. I don’t really know myself much. I play the sweet, mild flute in Military Band. I'm usually with my old friends; Cai Yue, Cai Long, Arisa, Hana, Chee Wai, Jun Jie, Wei Jie, Anna, Wei Ting, Ha Lin, Say Kiat and Lindy. I sometimes hang out with my BHSS buddies; Muhtadin, Buvana, Jocelyn, Xin Rong, Roselyn, Jing Xian, Nigel, Peggy, Maple, Tam, Wen Yuan and Stephanie. Those names in bold are the ones I’m closest with overall.
Booklist
What I don't have, What I want
A to S
a geisha's journey | a place called here | a tranquil star | alice in wonderland and through the looking glass | an accidental light | anthology of japanese literature | be careful what you wish for by alexandra potter | careful what you wish for | chasing windmills by Catherine Ryan Hyde | confessions of an ugly stepsister | cranford by Elizabeth Gaskell | everything under the sky | goodnight beautiful | if you could see me now | judge the obscure | just friends | keep it in the family | madame bovary | marley and me | me and mr darcy | middlemarch | missing by susan lewis | mrs woolf and the servants | my best friend's girl | my sister's keeper by Joudi Picoult | out of the shadows by susan lewis | paths of glory by Jeffery Archer | perfect picture by Jodi Picoult | perfect strangers | Pinstripes | princess of park avenue | remember me? by sophie kinsella | shopaholic abroad | shopaholic and sister | since i don't have you by louise candiish | shantaram | someone special by Sheila O'Flanagan | special relationship | summer in the city | son of a witch
T to Z
the abstinence teacher | the annotated alice | the case of the imaginary detective by karen jay fowler | the chronicles of chrestomanci volume 3 by Diana Wynne Jones| the cinderella effect | the glass palace by amitav ghosh | the good thieve by hannah tinti | the guernsey literary and potato peel pie society | the kitchen god's wife | the last concubine | the love of her life by Harriet Evans | the private papers of eastern jewel | the quiet girl | the red convertible | the scandal of the season by Sohpie Gee | the sea, the sea | the stepmother's diary | the tokaido road | then we came to an end | Totto-chan | Twenties Girl | Twilight series: book 4 | two caravans | a short history of tractors in ukrainian | up at the villa | wagner the werewolf | wedding season | weekend in paris | what happens in london by Julia Quinn | who gets fluffy? | widows in eastwick | wild designs by katie fford | love letters by katie fford |
Wishlist
it's about saving $$$
the PERFECT blogskin
good family and friends
digital camera (orange, lime green, white or violet)
big bedroom with a HUGE study table desk and a labyrinth of shelves! BIG, BIG closet for clothes
books from my "Book List"
to Japan, Australia, Mongolia, London, Korea and China!
soft toys; favouring HUMUNGOUS white/black/brown teddy
iPod (baby blue, orange, lime green, white or violet)
new laptop
new (big) wallet
3E2 '09
score straight As for 2009 EOY and 2010 O Levels
The best for my love ones, and a happily ever after :)
The strength to support and move on with my love ones in life :)
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Wong HY
Twin of Wong Rui Yee (deceased)
Aquarius.
Buddhist.
Annoyingly klutzy
BUT moral conscious.
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1. Roiworld: Click on "Fashion and Shopping" in "Categories" to view most of my roiworld designs AND a few intro on online fashion sites. Hover your mouse key over the Phlook photos at the left-side to select whether you want to "zoom in/out", "favourite" it, "comment" or "copy embeded code".
2. The fashion site is roiworld.com
3. To view my roiworld profile, go to my "profile" and click the link, "roiworld: kuonster". It's below my name and birthdate.
4. If you have an urgent message for me, email my gmail. I check it once every week. Note that it is just my e-mail, and not my MSN.
5. I won't be updating my twitter by sms so often anymore, and I don't think I can update it frequently by my laptop. I've been short of cash, lately. :S
6. I won't be able to blog much except during the holidays: March, June, September, November, December.
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